In December 2010, Manjit Panghali’s diary and letters were disclosed by the Canadian police publicly, and these letters were scrutinized by various Canadian media houses. The entries in the diary revealed that Manjit hated her life and was going through depression, and she was trying to keep her marriage from falling apart. One of her family members elucidated in a media conversation that Manjit Panghali was struggling with depression after the birth of her first child. In one of the entries in her diary, Manjit wrote,

I am writing today because I thought that I would never let myself get to this point. I am clinically depressed and on medication. I am so scared. My husband does not give me the support I need.”

Manjit penned that the depression made her helpless. She wrote,

I feel shattered, destroyed, crumbled. I want to drink, do drugs – do something that will lift me up.”

In her diary, she narrated the status of her marriage,

We need to do some work on our marriage. We need to plan it in order that our relationship doesn’t disintegrate. We need to do some work on this relationship. I need to stay connected to him. Make him love me again.”

She further mentioned that Mukhtiar had a drinking problem. She wrote,

I feel helpless. I hate life. It’s so hard to live in two cultures. He makes me feel so powerless, so hopeless, so scared. I once had no doubts about our lives together, my role in your life and our future, but now I am very scared about what the future holds for us.”

Manjit wrote several letters to Mukhtiar, and in one of the letters to him, she wrote the issues of their married life. She penned,

We have struggled with many issues – sex, drugs, alcohol, colleagues, family, our ability to communicate, be affectionate, love again. I don’t know if you have enjoyed the relationship we have had.”

Manjit further expressed her hesitation to have another child in her diary. She wrote,

I definitely don’t want to bring another child in this chaos. The chaos can [simply] be you drink and I don’t know how to cope. You let us down by not being around. You get upset and mean.”

Two months before her murder, on 18 August 2006, Manjit Panghali wrote about her birthday celebration with Mukhtiar and her second pregnancy test. She wrote,

MP though for sure I was pregnant and gave me a lovely card on our anniversary. He was very excited and was [sic] treating me like a princess. I could not stop crying because I was so thrilled.”

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